My prayers to the father

Oh Father in heaven, I love you the most. I am so happy that I found you. I am glad that I came back to you crawling. Lord thanks for the things you are teaching me and for the things you are about to teach me. I am so glad that you are working in my life. I am so proud that I have you, I know that you got my back. No matter what you will be there for me. Even when I do wrong you going to get me out and punish me for the wrongs and sins I have done. You won't let any others to punish me. Learning that I am under your care, learning that you are only the one who will punish me and no one else would dare bother me because you got my back. I feel like I won the world. I know I have done anything so great to win your love or your grace. Its already there, I just did not saw that with my worldly eyes. Thanks for opening my eyes and giving the eyes to see your deeds and your miracles. Thanks for everyday Miracles in my Life, My father I am nothing. I know that for sure. Ever since I am child, I know I can't do anything without you. I know that lord, But I am sorry for wasting all of my life, trying to run away from you. Now I feel like a stupid person who just don't like to bitter medicine to heal, but want to keep the disease and perish. Thanks for working in my life and opening my eyes and see your works. I don't know, what I would have become. I know that you are there for me. I know that you are telling anand this is not the place where you should be. I have a better place for you, a greater place, a place where city officials sit. A place where Higher people go, you have plan and a purpose for me. Lord I am so sorry, I let you down. I have wasted my life. You would have done a greater things If I was obedient. I made you procrastinate your plans about me. I am really sorry, now start working lord. I no longer wish thing I wish before. I am no longer enjoying the porn. I don't have the eye for it now. I don't feel that passion for porn now lord. I even don't feel anything right now. Lord I can feel your presence, I can feel your love. Its so incredible, I got nothing to give to you. Even the soul that I have is not mine. It came from you. I got nothing what shall I give back to you. I got nothing father. How shall I please you, how shall i make you feel proud, just like David, just like Jesus. Who lived and brought glory to your name. Father I have no knowledge of the bible, nor the knowledge world. I only know this, that you got my back and you will help me out. Father, can you teach me how to make my life and my heart merry in your name and peace unto my heart. I don't wish to have wealth which is not blessed by you. I need your blessing and your help and your grace. Father help me earn some money so that I can be a useful tool to your name. I want to be that pot that you use to serve the drinks, I want to be that cane that you use to punish. I want to be the brush that you want to paint, lord i want to be in your presence all the time. My heart is full of joy.

I thank you for all the things you are doing, teach me good, help me learn and understand your ways, give me the heart to feel your presence, give me the ears to hear your voice, give me the hands that clap for your glory and feet that runs to bring glory to your name, I want the eyes to see your works. I am so happy and glad. I can see your works and your miracles, your deed in my life. Not in others, I can see them happening in my very own life. I just want you to deal with me and make me something great. You know what I wish. You know what is right for me. So I stopped contemplating on my future. You tell me what to do, you make future. Coz my plans are futile, they bring disgrace to your name, to my family and to me aswel. So please help me out father, who sits on the heaven and the earth is his foot stool. The one who created the heavens and the earths, the one that sets the seasons, the one the brings down the pride of the kings, the ministers who disobey his command. No one is less, nor no one is greater before his eyes, he treats every one right. According to his will, may my life be. According to his desire I shall walk. I know I am talking semantics but hey, I atleast trying. My father will help me, he will come in resuce me and teach me what is right and wrong. He knows when to do things in my life. I am no longer on my own. I have stopped being on my own. I got nothing, but his love brought me forth. His grace made me sit with high priests, his love made me rich in spirit. I no longer care for this earth. I only care for my father, I only love you. Lord where are you, I hope you are listing to my words and my prayers, Lord I hope that this is what is I want to do. Just sit here and type the prayer that I like to pray, lord I have wish to learn music, I have wish to sing and dance, lord I have wish to make love to my gal you have set for me. My father, I no longer hiding anything, I putting everything here at your presence, let your will be my will and do what right before you. Not before this world. O father, help me. Just give me a promise that you got my back.
With a hope that you will help me, I conclude

Love
Anand