I am ready

O Father in heaven, I am ready now. I have no obligation to come to you. I am ready to go to bible college, Please help me search a great bible college. I want to improve my English speaking ability, yes I want to be proficient in English language. I also like to learn Greek & Hebrew. My father in heaven, In the name of Jesus I ask unto you to guide me to the right college, where I would be exposed to the right kind of environment and a college where it will help me grow spiritually. I would like to do miracles in your name, I know something in me is keeping me away to do those miracles, I want to go to the theological colleges and learn that mistake that are in me and grow completely in your faith. Father, I know you have purpose for me, I know you are there waiting for me to stand up on my feet and start working for you. Thanks for waiting for me, I am ready now lord take me to the places where you want me to put. Put me there and teach the things you want me to learn. Show the world of your miracles and your wonders and how well you are taking care of your children. Lord you are there for many people, you been taking care of everybody and giving to those who ask you in Jesus name. So as in the Scriptures I ask in the name of Lord Jesus Christ, I ask you to teach me your ways and your laws. Help me to live obediently and live up for your glory.
I gave up all of my wishes now, I no longer desire those things which I had heart before. There is nothing on this earth now to keep me away from you. No gal, No riches, No wealth, No job securities nothing. I am willing to suffer in far lands and bring glory to your name. You are my Shepard, you know whats good for me. You know whats right for me. You know, you just know. You are my creator, Lord I am falling off, I am breaking the laws and rules that you laid for our safety. I no longer consider them as unachievable, I know that you laws are simple and can be followed. But we complicated our lives, we engulfed in sin so much that sining was our daily routine. We lie when we woke up, we deceive, we plot against our neighbors, we don't love our neighbor as ourselves, we don't honor you name, we who use your name at all times not living a life that glorifies you. I know how much this is upsetting you. I can understand the pain you have in your heart. I know that lord, I can feel it. I am really sorry for wasting my life and pursuing the things that are futile. There is no success with out you, nothing will last longer if it is not your plan. Everything will perish, nothing can survive, if they are not according to your will. So I pray unto thee, that let your will be done in my life, let your name be glorified through me. Let me be the vessel that bring glory, that makes you happy. Give me the heart, the eyes, the ears and the senses that can see and feel your presence. I am so useless without you.

I know I can't achieve anything without your help. I am nothing without you. I am not trying to impress you but, that the hardcore fact. Lord I thought that I can do things without you. I thought that god is for weak. I thought its a weak man's paradise, I thought that. Now I know that nobody is weak in your name, they are all winners, no one is looser when they seek your help. When you accept the thoughts of their heart. Now I know that being weak is a blessing, Its gives me a chance to know you. Being strong makes us proud, But being weak keeps us obedient and with our heads straight.

Your ways are wonderful and your plans are great, there is nothing under the heaven, or on the earth that denies the fact that you are all mighty and great. I just wanted come under your shadow and have my rescue, I just want to be one of yours, I want to be called as your greatest servant. I want to be known by your name, like Sir name from father I want use your name as my Sir name. I want to tell the world that I have you. Lord I been weak, I was considered as useless. Now I am becoming something, my life is growing better. If its not your miracle I don't know what to it is.
You only you have the knowledge to bend the knees of greatest kings, You have the power to crush the proud and arrogant. You know how to call your people, your sheep, we your sheep can recognize your Voice. We know when our Shepard calls, we can recognize his voice. My Lord, My God, I can hear your voice now. I can see your works in my life. So Father in Heaven, I ask you in my savior, your son Jesus Christ name that please give peace to my heart. Please do not let the evil to temp us lord. As I am so weak, I might fall off. Please protect me from evil and from all kinds of deceptions. Let no one deceive me or temp me. Father Guard me from all kinds of evil. Help me find a great institution where I can feel your presence entire time and learn more about you. I do not have any plans, you plan things for me, You plan my future, as I submit my life, my soul, my will and my wish. I am giving everything in my power unto your name father. You use me however you pleases Asking the name of Jesus
Amen
LOVE
Anand prasad

Being obidient

Whats more important in life, what is it that keeps me away from you my Lord. There are many things that I am not doing in my life. I been pushing you away. How to make my life more beautiful, how to keep the evil away from my heart. What are those sins and the commitments that I gave that bring disgrace to your name. Lord I am not a sinner, I been purified in your blood. I no longer need to say that I am a sinner. I am not. Yes there are many many thoughts I desire to fulfill, but I consider them as fetal matter for your sake. Lord will come to my heart and teach me how to be a doer than a speaker. I don't want to be a hypocrate, My father, the son Jesus christ. Please help me understand your ways and let me live your path. I thank you my lord. I am not attracted to those fancy colors or the walls or the music. I am only attracted to your beauty, I am amazed the way you cleanse my heart. Is't that the best thing that could happen to anyone. Wow, this is so cool, I have a care taker now, a winner who always wins and he is streching his hands for me to come to his house. Be under his wings and be under his salvation. He has installed and stored the treasure that he have for the righteous. O righteous father, please come and teach me how to be righteous and how to be a winner. Lord I am not a winner, I am looser, I can win Viroja, I can't win my Genetical father's heart, I can't win this world, I got nothing , I have no skills, I have not talent, I have stupid mouth that speaks rubish which make perfectly not sense at all. I have heart that lusts all the time, I have brain that think in different ways and could not decide what I want. I have conflicts, complication, errors, sins, false pretence, false beliefs, false in every matter. My lord why have I made my life so complex. Please unfold all the riddles, unfold all the messed up knots, clear my thoughts and my heart. I am so glad that you told us to put all of our burdens unto you lord jesus, you are so amazing. I feel light, I feel delighted, I no longer worry about the things which I used to worry a lot. I know that you will take care those things and you will give what I need on time. You will provide, Our father is so great, he got such an abundant knowledge please ask father, our God. Tell him that I m a poor guy, tell him that I do make mistakes but I am willing to be under your command. I have no will now, I have no wish now. I give unto thee O lord. I am nothing, I care nothing. I just need you, father in heaven. I need you, come into my heart, help me grow strong. Drive the pride, let me be that obedient that you want me to be.
Asking in jesus name
Amen
anand

My prayers to the father

Oh Father in heaven, I love you the most. I am so happy that I found you. I am glad that I came back to you crawling. Lord thanks for the things you are teaching me and for the things you are about to teach me. I am so glad that you are working in my life. I am so proud that I have you, I know that you got my back. No matter what you will be there for me. Even when I do wrong you going to get me out and punish me for the wrongs and sins I have done. You won't let any others to punish me. Learning that I am under your care, learning that you are only the one who will punish me and no one else would dare bother me because you got my back. I feel like I won the world. I know I have done anything so great to win your love or your grace. Its already there, I just did not saw that with my worldly eyes. Thanks for opening my eyes and giving the eyes to see your deeds and your miracles. Thanks for everyday Miracles in my Life, My father I am nothing. I know that for sure. Ever since I am child, I know I can't do anything without you. I know that lord, But I am sorry for wasting all of my life, trying to run away from you. Now I feel like a stupid person who just don't like to bitter medicine to heal, but want to keep the disease and perish. Thanks for working in my life and opening my eyes and see your works. I don't know, what I would have become. I know that you are there for me. I know that you are telling anand this is not the place where you should be. I have a better place for you, a greater place, a place where city officials sit. A place where Higher people go, you have plan and a purpose for me. Lord I am so sorry, I let you down. I have wasted my life. You would have done a greater things If I was obedient. I made you procrastinate your plans about me. I am really sorry, now start working lord. I no longer wish thing I wish before. I am no longer enjoying the porn. I don't have the eye for it now. I don't feel that passion for porn now lord. I even don't feel anything right now. Lord I can feel your presence, I can feel your love. Its so incredible, I got nothing to give to you. Even the soul that I have is not mine. It came from you. I got nothing what shall I give back to you. I got nothing father. How shall I please you, how shall i make you feel proud, just like David, just like Jesus. Who lived and brought glory to your name. Father I have no knowledge of the bible, nor the knowledge world. I only know this, that you got my back and you will help me out. Father, can you teach me how to make my life and my heart merry in your name and peace unto my heart. I don't wish to have wealth which is not blessed by you. I need your blessing and your help and your grace. Father help me earn some money so that I can be a useful tool to your name. I want to be that pot that you use to serve the drinks, I want to be that cane that you use to punish. I want to be the brush that you want to paint, lord i want to be in your presence all the time. My heart is full of joy.

I thank you for all the things you are doing, teach me good, help me learn and understand your ways, give me the heart to feel your presence, give me the ears to hear your voice, give me the hands that clap for your glory and feet that runs to bring glory to your name, I want the eyes to see your works. I am so happy and glad. I can see your works and your miracles, your deed in my life. Not in others, I can see them happening in my very own life. I just want you to deal with me and make me something great. You know what I wish. You know what is right for me. So I stopped contemplating on my future. You tell me what to do, you make future. Coz my plans are futile, they bring disgrace to your name, to my family and to me aswel. So please help me out father, who sits on the heaven and the earth is his foot stool. The one who created the heavens and the earths, the one that sets the seasons, the one the brings down the pride of the kings, the ministers who disobey his command. No one is less, nor no one is greater before his eyes, he treats every one right. According to his will, may my life be. According to his desire I shall walk. I know I am talking semantics but hey, I atleast trying. My father will help me, he will come in resuce me and teach me what is right and wrong. He knows when to do things in my life. I am no longer on my own. I have stopped being on my own. I got nothing, but his love brought me forth. His grace made me sit with high priests, his love made me rich in spirit. I no longer care for this earth. I only care for my father, I only love you. Lord where are you, I hope you are listing to my words and my prayers, Lord I hope that this is what is I want to do. Just sit here and type the prayer that I like to pray, lord I have wish to learn music, I have wish to sing and dance, lord I have wish to make love to my gal you have set for me. My father, I no longer hiding anything, I putting everything here at your presence, let your will be my will and do what right before you. Not before this world. O father, help me. Just give me a promise that you got my back.
With a hope that you will help me, I conclude

Love
Anand