Judgement

O Father in Heaven, I bow unto thee, I have surrendered myself, yet I find myself running away from your ways. But you are so merciful not to get anger quick on me. You are going to show your mercy tomorrow, May what you wish in my life shall come to pass. O father, our of you love you are releasing me, out of your compassion, you are delivering me from my burdens, O deliverer, you are worthy of all my praises. It is your love that is saving me to this day, You never let a soul touch my body, It is your wish that let people to harm me. I learn t my lesson father. Thanks for teaching this lesson. I would not be proud again. O father this is you that has commanded these things to happen in my life. If it is not your wish. It shall not pass. Thank you for everything. Because of your love, i m saved. Its not because of my deeds, but because of your love, I m not condemned by people. thanks for giving me respect in the eyes of men. But I care less if it not given by you. I need to come close to you. Yet my desires are controlling me, My lust is taking over me. Please father, I do not wish to commit any other sins. I had it all, I least care anything, If is not given by you my father. tomorrow the 10th of June 2008. Is your judgment, please be with the judge and let your will be pass through him. My father. I thank you for everything. I knew the next step, so please help me build myself. I m nothing and I have nothing. My knowledge is null, my strength is zero, but my faith in you is greater, O great one, I have been scatter, I calling our your name, from far fields, to where I have driven myself and got lost because of my own deeds and will. I m wandering and I m searching for lovers, yet you did not condemned me, you are giving your love n you are give your peace into my heart, you talking to me in my deepest hours, You are talking to me when I m committing sins. You bore my sin, why I even not understand that, Lord dont close ears of my heart, Don't Close my eyes to see your great actions. O father I ask unto thee, do not shut your doors upon my soul, dont condem me from your kingdom, please let me be in the corner, let me sit like a dog and bark with my rotten voice. My mind is full of sin, my heart is full of lust, I can't think of other things except the sex, O father, I have lost into the valley of Sex/lust. How can I even see the world through your eyes, What ever I see, looks lustful to my eyes, what ever I heart, my brains cooks an instant story of sex. How do I even get of this great filth. I m stinking with sex juices, I m still like a rotten egg, I got myself into this, I was saved before, Yet I m coming back and wiping this muddy sex materials, O father i m ashamed to ask for your forgiveness , I shamelessly ask unto you in the name of your Son, Yeshuva, please forgive me and cleanse me one more time. I can't promise anything, i m too week to keep promises, I dont want to give false promises, I m a hypocrite, Father forgive me, Cleanse one more time, Coz i m so filthy. I can't stand my own smell, Its too stinky to bear. Please Wash me , make pure and teach me a lesson. O my potter, make a better utensil, I ask in the name of your son YESUVA. Amen

Need your hand father

Father i have left the hand that I have prayed for you. You gave me her, and I denied. Lord I m not worthy, i suspect, I don't trust , i have issues. She is better off with out, me.

This is for her own good, I know she would hate me. But I hope she would find good person who trusts her and love her more. Just like you father.
I thank you for the wonderful time you have given to me , to spend with her. I m great full for that. Thank you so much. Lord she is alone, nobody to talk to, and i denied the privilege for her to speak to me. By saying I want to cut with her. Now she is all alone, and there is nobody to talk to. Lord she is alone, she must be crying or not crying but I hurt her. Lord, I m not there when she needs me, she is not there when I need her. So I think, I don't deserve your gift my father.

I ask thee, to help her , i know you will but still i m requesting you to take care of love of life, asking in the name of JESUS.

Amen

cry of a soul

oh what a pain, what a pain. Is it not easy to say forgive others that have offended you. I tell you it is far difficult to

forgive and love. My practise to forgive the offenders is so hard, and yet I do not feel comfort. What am i doing and what am

I doing in this world, Have I gone insane. Do I still have sense that set forth me in this new land hyderabad, where I have

failed countless times, I been the gajanee mohamood, who tried for 17 times and won on the 18th time.

I been betrayed, I have paid the price under my nose. Thats enough for my life. For 14 years I have loved you my

friend, I could get 14 gals friends, But I just stood beside you even though you are poor, I was there when you are sick, I

was there when you needed food, I was there when you lost your exams, and I was there to comfort your gried, But yee was

coming to me for thy selfishness. Thou has hurt me, I m loosing my heart, this is pain is far more great than any gal friend

can give to her boy friend. My friend my friend what happend to our friendship. Why did't you tell me you are coming to

fulfill your need, I would have helped you better. and Treated you better. I should have known, but yee has special place in

My heart and it's now empty coz i know for sure, I could't give that special place to any of my friend. My gal hurted me, I

stood it, My Dad don't love, I can bear it. My mom, dispise me I deserve it, MY sister wont love, I can understand. MY

brother Does't believe in me, I am accoutable for it. But My friend pavan, o dear one, I did not you knew you are here for

your selfishes, I never, ever thought that you came to me all these years just to use me. OH i should have known better, I

did not gave food to gain you as friend I gave food coz i have something to share. I wanted to share certain things not all

things, but yee has came to me, just for thy selfishness. I been used by many, and I let it happen and helped them. I was

betrayed for thousands of ruppess, I let it go, coz i know they dont deserve to be my friends. I did't know you are on their

boat my friend, I thought you are on a better boat where I dont deserve to travel with you. But you have proved yourself. I

should have known, I should have known better.

O lord in heaven, If any one that can hear my heart , let them hear. I am hurt to the last bring of my sould and last

atom in my body, coz i been betrayed for 14 years. God my god, is there anyone that I can trust, is there any one that I can

believe, Is there soul that I could't not find fault. I think, its only God that hath no faults , we all are humans and we do

make mistakes. I find fault in my gal friend, but i love her coz i chose to love her, I dont care if she loves or not. Its my

choice to love her, I dont expect it back.But My friend, I did't choose you as a friend, I rejected you and despised you and

yet you came back. I thought I would be a fool to say again and welcome you into most deepest places in my heart, now yee

have said in thy own words that you are money man. I should have known you are a money man. I could have treated you better

and set forth my boundaries. I should have known.

The world changes and people changes, Climate changes, the seasons changes, and everything changes. I need something

that I can hold on and cry my heart. I need someone that can listen to my sorrows and and do not look down up on me, coz i m

looser. Yes my friend that what my dear brother said, Anna What did you achieve untill now you are 27 years of age. What have

you achieved so far. I did't know this day would come n people would ask , what have you done. It was all roses for me. Now

its all thorn. I need you now to tell you that my brother had mocked me before his friends, and insulted me and di't believe

me at all. I want to share my heart and the pain I went through when my brother asked me Anna what have you acheived. Is it

because he is leaving to US makes him a achiever and I m a looser. I think YES. He has done something and I did not. Today I

stood before the world like a looser. I aint looser my friend, I aint' looser. I want to prove myself. But I lost my heart,

coz i was hurt by you, my gal friend, my parents and my family member. Now I can't share with anyone, not a single soul, I am

walking on the side of the road and I can't see the road, coz these thoughts just runs before my eyes, and tears comes down.

I m a man, so i won't cry, but hear is crying my friend, I could't tell you this coz you betrayed me, yes you have . Yes you

have PAVAN. You did betrayed me. and I did't know you would change as soon as you get rich. I should have know better. I made

mistake and I made a bad choice. But I still like you as a friend, I would come and see you and wont say a word coz i have

no words but tears. I hate to write all this , but since there is no one in the office I thought I might write something to

cheer me up. I m sitting alone I can't be alone , If I am alone I would be lost but they left me alone here. And the thoughts

creeping back. I will not die, i will survie, But I wont be me anymore. I lost it all. I lost it the day I realiesed I am

being decieved for 14 years. Adios Amigo, so long my friend, we come a long way. I think , I better go in my way. My this

hyderbad be best place and give me good friends, I heard that friendship has different meaning here , I see about that.

Thanks for everything , now i am strong. Even though sad, but i m strong. Thank you and good bye my friend. May peace be in

your life.

world caught my eyes once again i fell

How do i raise up again my father, how do i walk again in your path. For I have prayed so many times for my personal favours and you have fulfilled my desires. But the world has caught my eyes and I fell into the world one more time. I m sick of falling my lord, I m tiered. I dont want to runaway from you I dont want to come back and say father I have sinned , please cleanse me. Oh lord what a terrible person I am. I m a hypocrate, I lie, I decieved you. I have promised to you to do more things , did't do a single thing. Oh father I yet again going after money, my father my lord, i m so stupid, to go after money. Lord help me and teach me your ways, I m sick of masturbating on my bed, I m sick of thinking of the pretty women on the internet and the Movies. I need one special women and I just want to see her face and see her body and none other. I m so sick of these pit falls, lord how shall I ask you to cleanse , how shall come back and say father I have fallen one more time please wash my sins, for you have so loved me and I have done nothing to prove my loyalty. Lord I m so sorry, i hear testimonies from people saything that you spoke with me, then why not me, you spoke with them in the darkest hours and I m here siting and thinking , enving those people , they are lucky coz they hear you voice, lord this world had caught my eyes and now my ears gone deaf to hear your world my lord, heal my deaf ears, heal my heart from the wounds. My heart does not ache, but MY soul aches so badly. I needs you , i misses you, I want all the golry thas was with me before and it feels empty by not having it all. O father , father, I ask in your loving son jesus name, do not abandon me, do not forsake me for my transgresstion, I m a human and I m learning. There are some unfilled desires, and there are somethings that had lured my heart. My father I do not want to fall again, strengthen my sould and heart, give me wepons that destroy these sinful thoughts and desires , I want to teach myself how to with stand these worldly deceptions, and walk in your path.

Asking in jesus name.

Amen

Moderate Baptists test unity in diversity

At a gathering in Atlanta of Baptists trying to mend fences and join hands, there was preaching by blacks and whites, scripture readings by women and men, and music by African-American and Hispanic groups. It was a visible, concerted push toward unity amid diversity, officials say, because Baptists have long championed freedom of expression.

"We respect that we have differences, and I think that we're willing to find common cause even though we have those differences," said Daniel Vestal, coordinator of the Cooperative Baptist Fellowship, a moderate Baptist group.

But the Celebration of a New Baptist Covenant, a three-day gathering of some 10,000 Baptists that ended February 1, is also testing the limits of that big-tent diversity. Some are asking how far Baptists are willing to go.

Over the years, Baptists have splintered over a host of issues, including race (North vs. South), theology (conservatives vs. liberals and moderates) and ideology (Southern Baptists vs. the Cooperative Baptist Fellowship). Black Baptists, too, have split over internal disagreements.

At this meeting, a pro-gay group was not allowed to be an official participant in the meeting, and the number of black attendees slowly dwindled over the three days of the conference. As expected, the 16 million-member Southern Baptist Convention was not an official participant, and some organizers aimed to show the potential influence of North America's "other" Baptist churches—those that are not Southern Baptist.

"This is just a first step, and we've got a long way to go to become a community that overcomes all the divisions that the culture has imposed upon us," said author Tony Campolo, professor emeritus of sociology at Eastern University. "That's one of the great challenges, and we hope that this new covenant is going to move in the direction of reaching that end."

Campolo scanned the crowd at the Georgia World Congress Center on the morning of January 31 and pegged it as 90 percent white. Around his neck he wore a brightly colored stole to show solidarity with gay and lesbian Baptists.

The Association of Welcoming and Affirming Baptists had sought to be designated a "participating organization" in the gathering, but officials decided there was not a "broad consensus" on the issue of gay rights and denied the group an official role.

"We are not going to act as outsiders, trying to get in," said Ken Pennings, executive director of the pro-gay group. "We're already in. Some just don't know it yet."

Bill Leonard, dean of Wake Forest University Divinity School in Winston-Salem, North Carolina, said Baptists had other issues of division to overcome before they could tackle gay rights. "We may get to these issues at some point and how we talk about it together, but if we start with that, we'll never do anything," he said. "Rightly or wrongly, I think that was pretty much the consensus."

The dwindling number of black attendees may reflect simple economics more than anything, one black church leader said. T. DeWitt Smith Jr., president of the Progressive National Baptist Convention, said some African-Americans couldn't afford additional nights in a hotel after attending the preceding meeting of four black denominations.

In small-group sessions, Baptists have grappled with what to do next in their attempt to break down racial barriers. The large interracial turnout on the first night of the meeting gave them a glimpse of the possible.

"Thousands of people singing hymns together, to me, is a foretaste of . . . heaven," said Joy Yee, senior pastor of 19th Avenue Baptist Church in San Francisco. "I love it. It gives me some hope and something to hold on to while we're trying to do this messy work of coming out of our boxes."

David Gushee, a professor of Christian ethics at Mercer University in Atlanta, attends a church in nearby Decatur that supports both the Southern Baptist Convention and the Cooperative Baptist Fellowship. He regretted that many Southern Baptist leaders had stayed away.

"In light of just the celebration and the joy in the room, it felt sad to me," Gushee said. "They're a big part of the Baptist family and they were welcome here."

The big question on everyone's mind is what happens next.

For some, the meeting was a call to personal transformation. Arabella Rich, a retired educator who said she had once been turned away from the University of South Carolina because she was black, remarked, "I've got to be a stronger, unprejudiced person."

For others, it's about forging new relationships. Pat Anderson, who coordinates missions for the Cooperative Baptist Fellowship, exchanged business cards with members of black Baptist denominations whom he had not met before.

"It's almost like a blind date," he said. "We've sat across the table and we've shared these experiences together. We're kind of holding hands a little bit. . . . We know we'll go our separate ways, . . . but we've decided that we like each other's company." -Adelle M.Banks, Religion News Service

kids

Father In heaven, my comforter, my Saviour, my Lord, My God and my good friend. I m happy in your presence. I m glad that I found you and serving you. I m very glad that, you had accepted me into your family. I m thankful to you and for your compassion upon me. Father God, My Lord, On the heaven above and below the earth. You are every where, and its all your's. You are the owner of all the creation. My God, I would like to ask you one more thing, please teach me your ways and the ways to live righteously. Lord I understand now, how you are able to forgive us. I understand now, why are not giving up on us. I understand your love now, I understand now, how you are able to forgive, even though we stumble, sin and lie and do all sort of things and then ask for forgiveness, and again do the same the very next minute. Lord its really simple, I have it now. It just the way we forgive the little kids, even though, they keep on doing mistakes, even though they keep on disguise us. As humans we love our kids, so much, we forgive them for everything. You are the father of all Nations and all Creations, You are the great one. You are still waiting on us to stand and walk straight, you still want to give us chance to learn and understand and act accordingly so that our lives would be prosperous. I know you never want us to suffer. If you do want us to suffer, you are teaching us something, Something valuable, Some thing great and that help us Grow in all Sorts of our lives. My Good Father, My Friend and My Forgiver, Would you help me understand what its like to live righteously, blamelessly. How hard is that Road Dear Lord. As I was taught rules are meant for our safety. So your laws meant for my safety and all the human being's safety. So father God, would you please teach me how to live righteously, think righteously, walk righteously and feel your holy presence in every breath we inhale and exhale. Is that possible lord. Would you let me walk all my days in your presence and the holy presence, I have lived with enough sins, I have thought enough sins, I have contemplated enough sins, Thats more than I can take lord. I m sick of being a sinner, I want to live as forgiver, live a loving person, Live a righteous person and live as your person, as your servant, as your commandments teach us to live righteously, teach us to live lovingly too. Let me love my neighbour, as I love myself, Let me forgive my offenders as I forgive myself and move on. Let me understand people as I understand myself, Let me the person, who you want me to be. Let me be the person who you wanted to mould. Let me be that special being which can serve you. Let me be the hair, that wipe your feet. Let me be the cups that you drank from. Let me be the soil, or the doney that you ride on. Oh father, let feel the presence of you in my heart, my body, my mind and my soul. Let me see your angels, let me understand your works and your creation, let me talk to you all night and day forever, let me seek your counsil, let me seek your advise, let me put you first in my life. Let me help others so that they can understand why I am such a freak of you lord. Why are you so great, O greatone, Is it not the righteousness that you want in us lord. Is it not the love you want us to love one another. The way you care about me, amazes me. The way you pour into my life amazes me, they you use me and turn to you, amazes me. I m so glad that you are using me, as your tool. I want to be more useful, Give me understanding and knowledge. Please let lead this house and the hostel in prayer and your praise all day long. Asking your son Jesus of Nazaret.
Amen

wonderfull father

O wonderful father, wonderful are your ways and wonderful are your deeds in my life. How shall I sing a song without giving thanks to you. How shall I start my day not thinking of you. How I obey you my father. Teach me your laws and teach me how to live a prosperous and abundant life according to Torah. Teach me to live life wisely like Solomon, teach me to do business like solomon, teach me the ways that David followed to win your heart. Give me the blessing and tests and make me pure. Make me strong in your faith, Make me bold in your name. Make me powerful as I speak your words. let there be your name and your glory through out my country and I shall bring this country to its Kness and pray to you. Make you as our Saviour and God. Help me grow in faith, help me live righteously and help have a heart like dove. Let no evil deceive me and take away from your, let not evil that can lure me and make me desire to sin. Test me and teach me and bring me out more purer than gold and my heart shall seek you with all it strength and bring glory to your name. Let all earth sing unto your name and pray unto you father. Help me to help these forgoten tribe of yours to bring the covinent back to your back and bring back your people to you and seek you as it is our right to have your mercy and your laws to live.
Help in every way I walk and every thought I think and every deed I do so that I can make this hostel your sanctuary, make this hostel a heaven for the kids and they shall feel your presence as long as they under you. no matter where they go use them.
Lord I think you for coming into mylife mysteriously, and make me uderstand you throughly and compleatly and thanks for letting me know what I have missed in my life and from whom I m runing away, and thanks father for not leaving my hand and telling me and showing your mercy in all my life in all my days, I m so so thank full and I shall not want any material possession. I want you to fill in my heart with your words and your glory and your spirit, even when i m drunk even when I m in lust, i shall not forget you and ask your permission or I shall tell you want I m doing and I m willing to take all beatings or outcome of my deeds.
thank you father for having me under your command. Thank you father for bringing me into your flock. How shall I give thanks to thee, when thine have noting to offer. But theyself. So take thee o my Olord, see my heart and not my words. Help me to understand your ways and follow them deligently. I need to know, I wanna know. Teach me teach me, I want to spend time with your lord. I want to talk to you lord, this is not about my lover. I know i have your promise, Its about me now father. I want to know and listen and see you with my bare eyes and ears father. Please please help me help me I m a sinner and I have fallen back. I ma back slider, I heard pastor john saying that there is young man and its his time, as his grand father, father had served him now its time to take the burden, I believe thats me father so i am accepting to take the responsibilty and want to carry that burden. Now I seek you with all my heart and with all my soul. I m hungry for your ways, I am hungry like lion to learn, teach me, teach me and help me learn and live your laws father. Help me help me help me to live righteously, O father please please I begg you, please pour your spirit unto me and help me understand your ways and do the things to bring glory to your name through me.
I m praying for my father, touch him lord, touch him and heal him right now, I command the sickness to go leave my father right now and he will bring glory to you. I m praying for johnothon's mother for her miracle and heal her father. I m parying for every sickiness and every bondage that is possesing your children leave, leave right now, its not your turn o satan, leaven leave right now I command in the name of jesus christ. Leave,
wonderful are your ways, wonderful are you my father teach me and make me pure, that is what i want.
Grand me I ask in the name of Jesus of Nazareth,
Amen