Thank you very much

O father I thank thee, For all the things that you have done in my life and I thank thee for being there for me. I m so gracious in your eyes. Lord what have I done, to have your grace in my life. I can't say one thing that I have done to win your heart. But still you love me and helping me when I cry. Oh lord in heaven, Why do you love me, Why are you helping, But I want to say this to you, I love you and I thank you lord. Thanks for the help and the love you are showing in my life. Thanks for the care and the support you are giving me. Oh lord, I have to correct myself. I been falling down many times. I don't like it. Please lord I need you to help me get up and walk in righteousness and be your obedient servant. I ask unto you to give me the knowledge and understanding to be your obedient servant and you obedient son. I want to bring glory to your name and to you. I thank you, I thank you, thank you, thank you.

Accepting the pain

Thank you father for giving me this pain. I am so uncomfortable right now. I wanna break the rules and just do it. But father, I don't want to hurt you any more. But lord God I m deeply trouble they way she is addressing me. Lord God, I can't take it. I m so depressed with the way she is addressing me. But I think thats the way she likes it.
King, savior and my provider help me out. Lord I miss her so much. I can't imagine after 4th of may. I don't know how I gonna cope with it. Thats the last day and might be my last chance to see her. To my knowledge that the logical end. There is no other way around. I might not see her for whole moth. Then again I might miss her, Lord. I m helpless, I have a hope that and faith that you told me to take care of her all that intermediate second year and I did.
Please tell me father, the pain is unbearable.
So I m abiding by your rules, Please give me good night sleeping asking in jesus name.